My pride hit ground zero today, not much different from the WTC back in '99.

I do not understand people who complain about their lives when it's already going so well. Worst, they do things that contradict what they have been complaining about.

I envy those that have the financial freedom that I don't - there are debts to be paid, sins of the forefathers carried down to the next generation and the next and the next.

When I have a kid I will teach him to embrace magnanimity, because as we all know life is a war and in wars there are winners and then there are losers and victory is only an interregnum before the next war begins again.

I keep telling myself that the sky is my limit, that I can reach for the stars if I try hard enough, but everytime that I do, I fall face first onto the ground below..but it always feels like I never hit the ground, just soaring two inches above..gliding through.

I need to revamp my life. I need to feel beautiful again. B, you are the only person that makes me feel beautiful, though I don't even know why. You are the only person that actually listens to my rant, correct me when I'm wrong, tell me when I'm right, encourage me to go after my dreams. You are by far, the only person that truly listen.

You were right. Life isn't about changing someone, his life, his perception. It's about pursuing our own happiness. I tried to change him but it's just not working out the way I thought it would.

***Note to self: Move on, move up, don't look back, don't look down. Do NOT fall!